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Saturday, September 18, 2010
There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you won't you, be the one I always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
25 to life - enimem
best song i've heard in awhile
Too late
For the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
Too late
For the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
Too late
I can't keep chasing it
Caught in a chase
25 to life
I don't think she understands
The sacrifices that I made
Maybe if this bitch had acted right
I would have stayed
But I've already wasted over half my life
I would have laid down and died for you
I longer cry for you
No more pain
Bitch you took me for granted
Took my heart and ran it straight into the planet
Into the dirt
I can no longer stand it
Now my respect I demand it
Imma take control of this relationship
Command it
And I'm gonna be the boss of you now goddammit
And what I mean is that
I'm will no longer let you control me
So you better hear me out
This much you owe me
I gave up my life for you
Totally devoted to you
Why I've stayed
Faithful all the way
This is how I fucking get repaid?
Look at how I dress
Fucking baggy sweats
Go to work a mess
Always in a rush to get back to you
I ain't heard you yet
Not even once say you appreciate me
I deserve respect
I've done my best to give you
Nothing less then perfectness
And I know that if I end this
I'll no longer have nothing left
But you keep treating me like a staircase
It's time to fucking step
And I wont be coming back
So don't hold your fucking breath
You know what you've done
No need to go in depth
I told you you'd be sorry
If I fucking left
I laughed while you wept
How's it feel now?
Yeah funny ain't it
You neglected me
Did me a favor
Let all my spirit free
You've said
Got a special place for you
In my heart
That I have kept
It's unfortunate but it's
Too late
For the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
Too late
For the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
I feel like
When I bend over backwards for you
All you do is laugh
Cuz that ain't good enough
You expect me to fold myself in half
Till I snap
Don't think I'm loyal
All I do is rap
How can I moonlight on the side
I have no life outside of that
Don't I give you enough of my time?
You don't think so do you?
Jealous when I spend time with the girls
Why I'm married to you still
Man I don't know
But tonight I'm serving you with papers
I'm divorcing you
Go marry someone else
And make em famous
And take away their freedom
Like you did to me
Treat em like you don't need em
And they ain't worthy of you
Feed em
The same shit that you made me eat
I'm moving on
Forget you
Oh now I'm special
I didn't feel special when I was wit you
All I ever felt was this
Helplessness
Imprisoned by a selfish bitch
Chew me up and spit me out
I fell for this
So many times
It's ridiculous
And still I stick with this
I'm sick of this
But in my sickness
And addiction
Your addictive as they get
Evil as they come
Vindictive as they make em
My friends keep asking me
Why I can't just walk away from
I'm addicted
To the pain, the stress
The drama
I'm drawn to shit
So I guess I'm a mess
Cursed and blessed
But this time imma
Ain't changing my mind
I'm climbing out this abyss
Your screaming as I walk out
That I'll be missed
But when you spoke of people
Who meant the most to you
You left me off my list
Fuck you hip hop
I'm leaving you
My life sentence is served bitch
And it's just
Too late
For the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
Too late
For the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
Too late
Caught in a chase
25 to life
best song i've heard in awhile
Too late
For the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
Too late
For the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
Too late
I can't keep chasing it
Caught in a chase
25 to life
I don't think she understands
The sacrifices that I made
Maybe if this bitch had acted right
I would have stayed
But I've already wasted over half my life
I would have laid down and died for you
I longer cry for you
No more pain
Bitch you took me for granted
Took my heart and ran it straight into the planet
Into the dirt
I can no longer stand it
Now my respect I demand it
Imma take control of this relationship
Command it
And I'm gonna be the boss of you now goddammit
And what I mean is that
I'm will no longer let you control me
So you better hear me out
This much you owe me
I gave up my life for you
Totally devoted to you
Why I've stayed
Faithful all the way
This is how I fucking get repaid?
Look at how I dress
Fucking baggy sweats
Go to work a mess
Always in a rush to get back to you
I ain't heard you yet
Not even once say you appreciate me
I deserve respect
I've done my best to give you
Nothing less then perfectness
And I know that if I end this
I'll no longer have nothing left
But you keep treating me like a staircase
It's time to fucking step
And I wont be coming back
So don't hold your fucking breath
You know what you've done
No need to go in depth
I told you you'd be sorry
If I fucking left
I laughed while you wept
How's it feel now?
Yeah funny ain't it
You neglected me
Did me a favor
Let all my spirit free
You've said
Got a special place for you
In my heart
That I have kept
It's unfortunate but it's
Too late
For the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
Too late
For the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
I feel like
When I bend over backwards for you
All you do is laugh
Cuz that ain't good enough
You expect me to fold myself in half
Till I snap
Don't think I'm loyal
All I do is rap
How can I moonlight on the side
I have no life outside of that
Don't I give you enough of my time?
You don't think so do you?
Jealous when I spend time with the girls
Why I'm married to you still
Man I don't know
But tonight I'm serving you with papers
I'm divorcing you
Go marry someone else
And make em famous
And take away their freedom
Like you did to me
Treat em like you don't need em
And they ain't worthy of you
Feed em
The same shit that you made me eat
I'm moving on
Forget you
Oh now I'm special
I didn't feel special when I was wit you
All I ever felt was this
Helplessness
Imprisoned by a selfish bitch
Chew me up and spit me out
I fell for this
So many times
It's ridiculous
And still I stick with this
I'm sick of this
But in my sickness
And addiction
Your addictive as they get
Evil as they come
Vindictive as they make em
My friends keep asking me
Why I can't just walk away from
I'm addicted
To the pain, the stress
The drama
I'm drawn to shit
So I guess I'm a mess
Cursed and blessed
But this time imma
Ain't changing my mind
I'm climbing out this abyss
Your screaming as I walk out
That I'll be missed
But when you spoke of people
Who meant the most to you
You left me off my list
Fuck you hip hop
I'm leaving you
My life sentence is served bitch
And it's just
Too late
For the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
Too late
For the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
Too late
Caught in a chase
25 to life
Saturday, September 11, 2010
i don't know what to believe about things anymore. i'll simply take things as they come. so i'll be able to take things as they go. good day.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
man my nose hurts. its like smelling ammonia all day. it burns! dammit.. and headache for the past 3 days.. shit dammit! meh! nothing i can do.. so there
have you ever been afraid of the silence before? have you ever been afraid of the concept of home? who says home is your safe haven. liar! home is nothing but a chain! why can't i be free to roam around all the days of my life. don't ever settle down for too long in one place. you're only making room for others to enter and then leave. why give them the chance?
anyway back to silence. fear breeds hate don't you think? because you're afraid therefore you put up a front of hate.. an emotion strong enough to cover another equally strong emotion. the longing yet the fear of what it will bring. things never go according to plan. why can't i just get use to that and not hve any expectations at all. oh thats right its because i'm an idiot. so fear makes me stay away but all i want is to go back. still even if i do it'll never be the same. all i want to do is distract myself so much that i'll nver have to think again. i need something to distract me. but everything is so tasteless. music has lost its hold. its all so bland. interractions with people have become so strange and formal. what do they see? what do they know. they know NOTHING. only a handful will understand, but they will also know.. this is something no one can help you with. the only person who can help you is YOU!
so fuck my life. all i want is to run far enough to never think again. never. its too painful.
anyway back to silence. fear breeds hate don't you think? because you're afraid therefore you put up a front of hate.. an emotion strong enough to cover another equally strong emotion. the longing yet the fear of what it will bring. things never go according to plan. why can't i just get use to that and not hve any expectations at all. oh thats right its because i'm an idiot. so fear makes me stay away but all i want is to go back. still even if i do it'll never be the same. all i want to do is distract myself so much that i'll nver have to think again. i need something to distract me. but everything is so tasteless. music has lost its hold. its all so bland. interractions with people have become so strange and formal. what do they see? what do they know. they know NOTHING. only a handful will understand, but they will also know.. this is something no one can help you with. the only person who can help you is YOU!
so fuck my life. all i want is to run far enough to never think again. never. its too painful.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
being THERE
how would you describe that sort of situation?
is it when you've reached the point where you can't advance further from that point?
or is it when you've reached the point where, tgt or not, it won't change anything becuz the only thing that changes is the title,the only thing that is different is the realization that 'oh we really ARE there'.
but even if you finally realised that you are really THERE
theres always the questions and the uncertainties that comes with it.
ARE we really there? how do we know?
what if we're not?
what if it doesn't work?
theres so many doubts and fears that come with it. how can being there raise so much fear?
how would you describe that sort of situation?
is it when you've reached the point where you can't advance further from that point?
or is it when you've reached the point where, tgt or not, it won't change anything becuz the only thing that changes is the title,the only thing that is different is the realization that 'oh we really ARE there'.
but even if you finally realised that you are really THERE
theres always the questions and the uncertainties that comes with it.
ARE we really there? how do we know?
what if we're not?
what if it doesn't work?
theres so many doubts and fears that come with it. how can being there raise so much fear?
Saturday, February 27, 2010
hello.. week 4 just ended.
finally getting use to the timetable.
anw did go to training today, went to knox with min and jill..
and min was 'high'.. xD i had nothing to do with it.. wahahaha
bought jansen's present and went to church.. nearly fell asleep in church cuz of all the late nights this week.
hmm was suppose to go for a bbq but rained.. zzzz
then switched to min's house but my mom didn't know the way so we didn't go.. damm..
my birthday is coming up :D
2 weeks..
finally getting use to the timetable.
anw did go to training today, went to knox with min and jill..
and min was 'high'.. xD i had nothing to do with it.. wahahaha
bought jansen's present and went to church.. nearly fell asleep in church cuz of all the late nights this week.
hmm was suppose to go for a bbq but rained.. zzzz
then switched to min's house but my mom didn't know the way so we didn't go.. damm..
my birthday is coming up :D
2 weeks..